Welcome to my blog! As it says above, I’m the Diaper Demigod (I’m not going to use my real name for privacy reasons). If the name makes it sound like I have a big ego, don’t worry; my main goal in coming up with a name was alliteration! Anyway, I am a diaper lover. I’m hoping to create an interesting blog centered around adult diapers. My target audience will be other diaper lovers like me, but anyone who wears adult diapers is sure to find some interesting posts here.
For the majority of the time since I started buying diapers for myself, I didn’t like wearing diapers to bed. I had several reasons for this, some being:
- I couldn’t enjoy the diapers in my sleep
- I couldn’t use the diapers in my sleep
- A diaper combined with my blanket made me too hot
- Waking up in a sweaty diaper felt bad, and that’s how I always woke up in one
- Tossing and turning in my sleep put a lot of mileage on diapers, crumpling them and such
- Sleep movements and length sometimes caused leaks
- Peeing while laying in bed, just before or after sleep, often led to leaks
With such an extensive list of problems, I’m sure it’s clear I tried wearing to bed many times without many positive experiences. Indeed, I tried over and over; in theory, wearing to bed was fine at worst, but in practice it was fine at best.
So, what changed my attitude? I don’t know, really, but I can speculate.
I wrote a post on Sunday about how I was running low on diapers and trying to decide what to do about it. Out of four options, I was leaning toward the second, which was to buy a pack of GoodNites and ration them once I ran out of my Prevail and NorthShore briefs. But “leaning” isn’t much of a commitment, so at the end of the post I promised an update on my decision once I was more sure.
One thing I’ve done (though it hasn’t been completely intentional) that has helped me decide is I haven’t worn a diaper since Sunday, even though I have briefs available.
That has allowed me to eliminate my third option from consideration. That option was to continue business as usual (diapered 24/7) until I ran out of briefs and then go cold turkey. It was an option because I wasn’t sure I could handle option four, rationing my remaining briefs (and not buying more). Now that I know I could handle option four, it has become more of a possibility.
At one point toward the end of last semester, I had a close call with being found out by my roommate when he walked into a public bathroom while I was changing my diaper in a stall. Read on for the details. . . .
While I sometimes changed my diaper in the bathroom I shared with my roommate when he was home, I don’t think he ever realized what I was doing in there. At least, he gave no indication he did. And he was always pretty absorbed in his own world (I’d say more than most people) so it makes sense he would never figure me out.
But public bathrooms are a different beast. It’s way less private in there. Stall walls don’t reach the floor, and there’s often a substantial gap between stall doors and stall walls that’s easy to see through, even when you’re not trying to. Plus, sound travels well and echoes.
A week or two ago, my family briefly talked about adult diapers at dinner. I found this very strange and interesting. I meant to write up the conversation in a post the day it happened, but it slipped my mind. Then I kept forgetting to do it until now, when instead of a super-accurate transcript of the conversation, all I can provide is a good approximation of what was said. Oh, well. Here it goes:
I think my entire family, myself included, looked up from our plates to the TV when an adult diaper commercial started toward the end of dinner. I don’t know what caused us all to look. Maybe the commercial was louder than the others. Anyway, as is a pretty usual thing for me, as soon as I realized what the commercial was for, I removed my eyes to seem disinterested.
I think a laugh from my sister was what prompted my mom to say something about the commercial, but maybe my sister didn’t laugh and she just decided to say something. What my mom said surprised me. It was something along the lines of, “I wanna get some of those.”
As I mentioned in my most recent Journal post, my diaper supply is running low. I face a challenge: What am I gonna do about it?
I could buy more online, but that was easier when my parents were out of town. The simple fact that they’re in town and not leaving makes me nervous to buy that way. That said, I think I could pull it off if I wanted to. If I did do it, I think I would buy two packs of Prevails. Two packs would last me through the rest of the summer and possibly leave me with some to take to school. If it did, I wouldn’t have to order some right after arriving, which would be nice.
Another option I have is to buy more in-store. I would most likely get GoodNites if I went with this option. However, I’m reluctant to do it. I could run into someone I know at the store and I would have to transport the diapers to my room in a fairly-transparent bag. Then all I would get for my trouble is 11 diapers. That would be a lot of risk for very little. (I could buy two packs or go back later for another, yes, but I don’t think I would be comfortable doing that.)
In Diaper Journal posts, I write about my day with a focus on what you might call the “diaper side” of my life.
Today was a pretty boring day, but I’ll write about it anyway since most of my days have been boring recently.
I woke up a little after 9 AM. Then I sat up on the edge of my bed and peed a large amount. I felt my pee wetting my NorthShore all over the front and flowing down to my butt and wetting quite a bit of the back.
Then I walked over to the mirror on my closet door and took a look at it; I wasn’t wearing anything over it, as usual. I saw that whereas it had barely been wet when I’d gone to bed, it was now wet everywhere except at the top corners in the back.
I felt this wetness on my skin after I took my dogs out, as I lay in bed eating breakfast and watching TV and such. At one point, I got up to examine the diaper in the mirror again and I peed a small amount. I felt it settle in my crotch area.
As I wrote in a recent post, I had a pretty big scare last April when my parents came closer to finding out I wear diapers than they ever had before. The incident caused me to abstain from wearing diapers for about six months. I don’t remember too well all the diapers I used before then or in what order, but I have a pretty good memory and record of the ones I’ve used since and in what order. If you’re interested in what diapers I’ve had experience with and how much experience I’ve had, this is the post for you!
Early last November, on top of being the first time I bought diapers in six months, was the first time I bought diapers while living on campus and the first time I bought diapers online. (I hadn’t bought online before because I’d been too afraid my parents would intercept my mail.) While the purchase was a first in many ways, it was also a beginning; I haven’t gone long without diapers ever since.
Anyway, what I bought was a 12-pack of small Tena briefs off Amazon. I’d done a lot of browsing on Amazon in the past, I think mostly before the April scare with my parents, and I’d had this choice lined up for a while. I liked it because it was cheap, a good trial-size pack, and from a brand I couldn’t get in stores.
I’d expected the small size to be a good fit based on my waist size, but it wasn’t. And I guess the size problem overshadowed the other problems I had with the diaper, because I went ahead and bought a 28-pack of medium Tena Super briefs less than a week after I bought the first pack.
Sometime while going through the mediums, I concluded that there had to be better diapers than the Tenas. They were basically the same as the Walgreens Certainty briefs I got quite often before the summer; they looked and felt mostly the same, they didn’t last long, and they leaked easily.